Its Fine.

Whatever you do,

Whatever I say,

Its all fine.

Sometimes you smile,

Sometimes I cry,

Its all fine.

Most of the times you are lost,

Most of the times I am sorted out,

Its all fine.

Its likely you understand the reason,

Its obvious when I gift wrap the reason,

Its all fine.

Rarely you give me hope,

Always I give you a chance,

Its still fine.

But when you play around,

With all what I have and most honest about,

Its not fine.

This moment might end,

The magic may get lost,

I might crumble and be lost forever,

But it will only affect me,

As you are always FINE.

Priceless Gift

Here's a lil' wondering to do,
I have a friend whom you might know too,

He loves and writes and explores,
always full of life and a lot more,

I could talk to him about anything for endless hours,
from sandcastles to concrete towers,

He is definitely different,
he is a perfect person.

Time is yet to allow,
but it's high time now,

That we spoke like we used to,
that our friendship should renew

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With such lovely people around me , my life cannot be better!

My Romance with the Himalaya's

Hello, all you beautiful people. So a blog after long time.I m back with the answer of my absence during Summers.I did this Basic Mountaineering Course at the Directorate For Mountaineering and Allied Sports,Manali during july.After all of the wilderness and surreal natural experience of those 26 days , i have completely lost my heart in the woods and will never recover from the jolt of seeing the beauty of virgin land thousands of feet above the S.O.C.I.E.T.Y.The feeling of seeing nature in its truest form made me understand life in a better sense of reality and perhaps made my theory and vision of life more distinct.These notes will make u see the world through my eyes through 12 days while i was camped at 13k ft at Bakarthaj,Dhundi (Himachal).

Where the sight of goats grazing

in flashing green meadows lay,

Along with wild dogs running

with me running behind them

trying to chase them as fast as i can

all reckless,carefree n happy

And then suddenly standing still,

To gaze at the huge streams,waterfalls

Dancing around in the Woods.

Where fresh,chilly rains lay,

Where clouds lay in quiet repose,

Where birds fly high in silhouetting

by the glowing sun behind

ready to melt in the sky,

Where lies fierce winds that

jolts your senses to reality,

Where I lie in my truest form,

With vision of life clear,

While being caressed by nature

All real and bare with just

My hands and feet to guide me

and i rise up and find my direction

M.A.G.N.E.T.I.C.A.L.L.Y

as my flight if imagination takes off.

These also cover one of the most gratifying moments of my life of conquering everything to reach Camp1,Shetidher Peak at 16K ft.

After doing this , i felt more complete,earthly and more STRONGER.

Details:

We were in Manali for d first 10 days where our day started at 5 am and continued till 9 pm.We had rock climbing,jumaring and rappling spread over d the 10 days along with intense physical training,hours long trekking,lectures on techniques and history of Mountaineering and team spirit building games.All of this in the Nature's lap at 8k ft above with Snow Clad Himalays looking down at us.

After the 10 days we trekked for 2 days resting after the 1st day to reach Bakarthaj at 12.5 K ft.We pitched our tents there and stayed in the green meadows closer to the peaks for the next 10 days.We did Snow and Ice crafting there along with more lectures.The wilderness came in there as we had no mobiles,electricity or assets like a toilet even.We did shit in d open,never bathed ,the stream was so cold that we rarely washed our faces.We ate grains mostly with powder milk or chicken some days.The highlight of the trip was the 21st day when we did a peak called Shetidhar-Camp 1 at 16 k altitude.All the learning of 20 days applied there.The level was such that few of 70 people could complete that and luckily i was the 20 th person to do that.We went through the Beas Kund and above over ridges , snow and ice capturing unforgettable sights of Nature that were hard to believe and even imagine.The place was untouched by human activities which made it so much more exciting.We had started at 3 am in the morning and were back to our base by 2 pm.It made us so more stronger

We came back ,had our tests and awarded the degree of Mountaineering by IMF on the 26th.I highly recommend such a trip for a nature enthusiast

Links to lots of photographs covering the 26 days.

http://picasaweb.google.com/shobhit.gtalk/Mountaineering?authkey=Gv1sRgCI6G983lk-u8DA#

http://picasaweb.google.com/shobhit.gtalk/Mountaineering2?authkey=Gv1sRgCNqMv_v3xNfWVg#

You can check out the details of the course on:

www.adventurehimalaya.org.

Lady In Red(Yellow technically)

All about goose bumps!

Ah! Sometimes when you feel really very down in your life.Things turn awfully monotonous and you are like lying down all day in your room,lazy even to get up for water.Well today was one of those days and it started as one of the most boring mornings for me and ended as the most beautiful evening ever.Lets just say such is the state of my heart that it has inspired me to write after a very long time and my heart is still pounding under my chest.I am sweating while writing this.

I went for this family parties with parents today.As usual , i had just accompanied them out shear respect for them and mom's continuous nagging about how i am getting out of hand.So here i was sitting amongst a group of strangers who are barely know each other and out of courtesy , we exchanged names and all of us know that this was just for the evening as we never had to meet again and neither did we care to do so.Till this beautiful,young girl entered the room.What beauty! What elegance! What charm! What poise! What spontaneity!What vibrant glow on her face! What beauty! Ah! The miff of air around.All hearts where swaying and so was mine.Mine was actually doing karaoke by then.I had lost my consciousness by then as i am blank after that.It was wine personified.I am saying that again as i am and was speechless.Its amazing how i acknowledged so much of her at just a glance but the later part of the evening proved how little i thought of her until the evening concluded and i had lost myself totally.

Well she said hi and we got chatting. Early into the conversation, it was totally formal.My questions and her elegant answers.The other guys at the table were joining in as well and it was nicely going along.The evening was smooth and while every one was having just another day,sitting chit-chatting, i was having a ride of imagination.The rush,warmth and excitement was unusual for me.I have never experienced such a rush of blood to all parts of my body ever.I really do not remember a single word out of the two hour conversation we had but just her quick ways,cute gestures and enigmatic smile.Oh! That smile.She always had some thing or the other to bring up.So involved were we,that the rest had got the cue to fall into groups themselves.We never realized how everyone started leaving near us. Our interests matched.Our opinions matched and half way through the conversation, i had realized that we were hitting it off ! We talked about movies,books,college,society,people and what not.Suddenly we discover our school connections too.She was from my school,just an year senior to me.Then it got even more intense.We took a break for having dinner.I really do not remember eating anything, it was just the dehydration due to continuous sweating and the rush that i had gallons of water.

We rejoined, again conversation sparked off and passions ignited.By now i had completely lost track of time::place::society::what she is speaking:: EVERYTHING. It was she speaking speaking speaking and me awkwardly smiling smiling smiling and the rest of the crowd frowning frowning frowning.I was always contemplating about what my next statement will be while still admiring her slender,glowing and vivacious looks in my mind.She had clouded my imaginations.

Finally the time came when we had to leave.It was nearing midnight and parents signaled me to leave.The most beautiful evening was coming to an abrupt end but i sort of the day by pushing forward my hand to meet hers for a cordial handshake goodbye(thats how we do that in India).She smiled ever so brightly and was rather amazed and happy to give my compliments.She rose and i rose up too.I said " Its was great meeting you and hope to be in touch", she returned the gesture.And with the ever so lovely poise and grace she walked away.Her body shone brightly under the huge chandelier as she walked in her daisy yellow dress into the crowd.I finished with hasty handshakes all around and went ahead to meet mom.I greeted a lady who was talking to my mother.My eyes still searching hers.My head took a 180' view and finished with she standing in front of me.That lady was her mom.So i was sort of relieved and curious about this.My mother seemed to know her from before due to earlier acquaintance at some other party,i guess.I guess this was the first girl that i have fallen for whom my mom knows and likes.

We walked out of the hall,she was still there but i had to leave.I caught the last glimpse of hers, still talking vividly with a bunch of guys over a few soft drinks.I thought she would look back at me as i leave but i guess she was not aware of the situation and maybe her heart was not pounding as fast mine or she was not loosing her breath ever second like me.But i still think with the kind of passion and brightness in our conversation ,the feeling of loveliness was mutual! :)

While i was stepping into the car, i brought up her topic.I said " Mom,she was really cute".Mum smiled slowly, realizing something and said " Yes, i know.A well brought up girl".

All through the drive back home i kept of regretting the follow

1)Why didn't i take her number

2)Why didn't i confess to her how beautiful she was.

3)Why haven't i shaved for 15 days now when i look like a total maverick .

Still , i am too rosy,mushy and warm with the feeling to sleep.This will not go.

Love you.

I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright
I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance
I have never seen that dress you're wearing
Or the highlights in your head that catch your eyes I have been blind
The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek
There's nobody here, it's just you and me, It's where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
I'll never for get, the way you look tonight

I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled, It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight

The way you look tonight
I never will forget, the way you look tonight
The lady in red
The lady in red
The lady in red
My lady in red (I love you.)

Year 2009-10 concludes.

Highlight of the year : Eddie Vedder ( Pearl Jam/Into the Wild)
So here i am sitting on my bed with this bright sunlight falling on my face through my window plane.Surprisingly just sitting for 2 hours now.And smiling. Content,relaxed and very happily.The academic year 2009-10 has finally ended.I am quite alone on this last day at my hostel with it being virtually empty. The new found calm is nice. Its refreshing to wake up listening to birds chirping and singing in my balcony than heavy metal or punjabi bhangra.

The year was a bright one for me and probably it was an year of 'Rebirth(in the real world)-Learning' for me. I came to this university as a kid and i am going back home as an adult(in the real sense).Lots of things changed over the last year for me,my perspective towards life in general,my habits, my goals(academically speaking).I sort of discovered the essence of knowledge.Knowledge about myself, the world and the beautiful people in it.The realization and knowledge of love,which is something new and confusing.The knowledge about understanding everything.Finally,the knowledge that nothing in permanent and bounded to change.Change,ya that is permanent. We will keep on growing,changing and evolving.

And the high point is ,this is so just the beginning of the numerous EVENTS.Officially this is where it all begins.

So my ride to the station is waiting, i have to go home! Maa, here i come.

Happy Summer,

Shobhit

I'm going to paraphrase Thoreau here... rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth.

One Fine Day!

Here a few little things that can make a short trip very refreshing and relaxing:

Another good outing yesterday.Terrible weather but exciting to go for a trip.We did go for a trip.It was just that we went 70 kms just for eating kentucky fried chicken.We reached in the time but rode back(70kms) to our place in an auto rickshaw. When its terrible weather with quite decent showers from the sky,being a cloudy and dark night and the road being slippery,you tend to get a bit scared at the thought of driving on N.H.And when you are siting in the front alongside the driver,its not such a cozy affair.Even the dogs were running around,frantically looking for cover from the rains.

So you tend to take your mind off it and just enjoy the scene rather than thinking of the possible consequences.So here it goes.The auto rickshaw was going at a decent pace of 40km/hr or may be a bit more at times.I was sitting next to him(driver) with my head alternating from inside the auto to outside while the chilled breeze was kissing my face,touching my eyes and ruffling my hairs(long hairs i might add) making long burrows on my head and the drizzle kept a tantalizing balance between wetting me and not wetting me.It was like every drop that was falling on my face was carefully dried by the wind coming over it the next second,leaving me amazed.It was as if i was first hand experiencing the delicate touch of mother nature.It was ecstasy as it happened again and again and again making me grow more and more fonder of the moment.I thought for a second,may this ride never end and this feeling never leave my soul when you can feel the utter sense of calmness.

We stopped for tea,under the weather which was tending to becoming dry.Hot tea served.Deja-Vu happened when i was having quite a surreal experience back in Lucknow days over a biking trip.Still the dampness left behind after fresh rain water was floating in the air.Everytime it entered my nostrils,it caressed it to my delight.

At last we reached.We walked to our rooms while i saw the leaves shinning green and dark everywhere.There are moments in life which happen and stay alive and vivid forever.Yesterday,was one of those experiences.

Phew! **Sigh** Deep breath!

Sorted!

Months of awkwardness is gone today.Clashes resolved and i lose.Feeling relieved refreshed or resurrected even. Thank God!

I feel tired after the long road taken.Finally landed nowhere after months.The value addition to me over the time was zero.So here i take the leave,which i should have done earlier havin got the cue much earlier.Someone said that "Its best to retire when you are at the front". I did not do that.I took to the its very limit until my muscles ached and forced me retire.My heart and mind cannot take it anymore.Sorry,to everybody who knows,i have nothing to say and nothing to hear.

Now coming to the day,its was again long. Freescale Semiconductors is giving us lots of things to think of and making its tough and interesting.There was a workshop on the development of a Smart Car based on tracking a race track.Pretty trivial.It was nice.The look into the world of Micro controllers was fascinating and intriguing at the same time.There is so much to do with those little things,i cannot explain.You can control anything almost anything.Your wish will be executed by the machines.A way of expression as well.The world has evolved since i was wetting my diapers till today and i am realizing that.Got to move to the top gear to catch it and fly high,

Okay guys , time to go .Keep working hard everyday!

God Bless!

Back on my running ways!

The turmoil lives on over the weather!

Pleasant as usual. I had a nice long day full of classes and extra classes.I don't know why but on the days i work hard and break sweat, i feel the best.It happened today. I woke up early.As usual missed the breakfast. Prepared for an interview during the luch break. Had my first coffee of the day at 5 Pm.( I am addicted to it,btw)

When i walking back,i felt unusually tired.You know how it is,after a long day.The odd twitch in some part of your body,which you don't know.The unaccounted for dizziness in the head.The odd nostalgia.The odd glum mood.Your neck dropping and your face landing on your chest again and again.You pull it with much effort and again it lands back on your chest.You aimlessly look at your shoes,moving ahead.You mock at them to stop and give you a break,but they don't.You come to your building and realize the elevator is not working.You so want to kill and the guards sitting near it when they give you friendly gestures.You,literally crawl your way up to your room, 4 floors in my case.You reach the door to your room and wait.You wait and stare at the lock.As if it will magically realize that boss is tired and open up on its own.

Then you drop the bag in some corner of your small room and crash in your bed until hunger wakes up,hours later.The same happened to me today,except the last line.I opened the door to my room and instead got my trunks and t shirt on.Got my ankle brace and shoes where they belong and i was off to make my tiring day , a bit more tiring.Today, i wished to take it farther.Its when you have jogged your quota for the day and you take that extra mile,which you relish the most later.

Now as today was the day of challenging yourself again and again so i decided to go for a jog after the P90X workout.I remember my doctor telling me about a month back." Shobhit,take care of your ankle and start running whenever you like but stop running when it starts to hurt".So i took to the football field again.The trees where swaying madly as usual,the dust was becoming a dust storm as usual, a few souls could be heard chit-chatting and laughing far off,as usual but unusually, i was high on spirits.

I took to running after 2 months, i suppose.I ran the first lap, it went fine.Then the second,i was just beginning to feel the rhythm.Then came the following laps.My eyes kept on alternating from closing and open as it was facing very strong winds.The hairs were disturbing me and i started talking to them.I told my hairs" You better mend your ways be where you belong,my head and not my eyes or nose.If you are not listening then we r going to the barbers soon.By the end i was sprinting.It felt nice and energetic.I felt i could go on trek then and there.Such was the adrenaline rush.I could feel my heart thumping in my chest,i stopped not because my ankle was hurting,it was because my inhalation was hurting my windpipe.Now thats a some beautiful and sweet PAIN!

The winds kept on becoming stronger and forced me to vacate the field and leave.I guess the trees where not quite keen on having me around today.I guess the tall sheesham tree got too possessive about it leaves because i was staring at it for quite a while now.You will realize that when you feel tired you are actually not.As its said" Its not necessary to be strong but to feel strong.To transport yourself to the most ancient of human conditions when running around was all what we had to do.The simplicity of such endeavors makes it satisfying and gratifying.

Finally,i took a detour today from my daily habits and it felt nice,calm and smooth.I deserve a lemonade! :) with extra lemons.

Kudos!

I love you all.

P.S How can you sit and read when you can move out of your rooms and RUN!

April 27th,beautiful evening!

Whats a beautiful evening its was. Back here in Patiala, there was a mild thunderstorm in the evening followed by dust bowl state and finally an exquisite site of sun melting behind the clouds below the horizon.Perfect to excite me.

The Sun actually melted away since i was gazing at it for an hour , non stop.I was sitting at the corner of the football field,under a huge range of tall trees , reading 'Motorcycle Diaries' ,all alone.It was getting dark and the combination of the wind,trees and the slight drizzle made it a melancholic sight and i just sighed. I took a deep breath and exhaled. I repeated this like ten times till the feeling started to go away.But no sooner had i stopped thinking about it than the wilderness of the trees nearby started caressing my senses and all the melancholy came knocking at the doors of my heart all over again.

I sat there after the sunset for another hour. Then, I stood up to realize that my right foot has completely frozen. I, like a crippled voyager, long hairs all covered with dust and a face of disdain, limped for a while.Soon i was walking straight , emerging from the dark corner of the field.I walkman played ' I drove all night by Roy Orbison and i literally shouted the song ( its close to my heart).My singing amused the wild birds around and i think even the retreating clouds of birds might have noticed me.The Sun had finally settled in some another world and i could no longer see it.But what was still left was a narrow gleam of light,very sharp and bright.The moon had started emerging from the thick clouds.

I called someone and it was not picked up.I use my mobile so rarely and still its of no use. Ha ha :). Its time i withdraw from it totally. Back in my room, all in dirt and filth, i took to the bathroom.Now the fresh cold water was carefully dripping through my hairs to my body. What a feeling! A very complete afternoon. It just lacked maa and chai! :(

Until next time,

Cheers!

Khwahish!

I was walking then when you passed

Smiling in the golden gleam of the sun

Like a flower blossoming

And your lips like petals bursting open

And eyes so deep as an ocean

You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since

Like the world has frozen

Again you pass with the same smile

Smiling in the golden gleam of the sun

Like a flower blossoming

And your lips like petals bursting open

And eyes so deep as an ocean

You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since

Like the world has frozen

Again you pass with a giggle

On seeing me there ,exactly there

Giggling in the golden gleam of the sun

Like a flower blossoming

And your lips like petals bursting open

Eyes shining like stars

You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since

Like the world has frozen

Again you pass, frowning a bit

On seeing me there,exactly there

Still your face shining under the sun

Like a flower ready to blossom

And your lips like petals ready to burst

Eyes not meeting mine this time

You are my Sunshine

And I am standing there ever since

Like the world has frozen

And you never passed again

Suddenly , its nightfall

Just dark , very dark,barren and scary all around

And I am waiting there ever since

To catch another one of those

Smiles,giggles or frowns

In the golden gleam of the sun

Like a flower blossoming

Like petals bursting open

Like eyes so deep as an ocean

You are my Sunshine forever....

And i will Wish and Wait forever....

5pm Feb 12th '10

Hi

Right now i am out watching Swadesh , one more time. Its because of Gita or something else i don't know but i can't help watching it whenever i find time
Its a lazy afternoon here in kanpur with green plants all around me all drenched in fresh rain water.It has been raining from quite a while and i am absolutely cherishing my experience of coming home in this time of the year when its so pleasant all around.

I don't know why , but i am turning poetic here as i listen to leaves been brushed aside far away by some one under the trees , as i listen to the cloud of birds retreating to their nests after a quite a moist day , as i hear the koel rhythms far off , as i turn nostalgic for all of you sitting in kerela backwaters in one frame having the evening chai.

Now mom is wake , and i am off for chai with parents.

Cheers guys to this lovely affair with life in true sense when you have utter sense of relief, calmness and serenity all around. Today ,i want no more but this feeling to stay with me forever and always provide me the soothing balm in the toughest of challenges ahead as i will always know that just a little more far off , if i carry on and have more faith , i have my family to come to and forget the rest.

At last these lines are just conjuring up in my head


As i stand admist this wind kissing my face ...
I wonder ' I prefer solace over fun'
I prefer silence over talking
I prefer thoughts over expression
Couple over crowd
Truth over love,fame,faith and everything ...

And i reach out to my quiet repose.

Love You,
Shobhit